untitled

so easily disposable, dispensable.
you are
not the only one i have had on that bed
old chap.
you are not the only one i have ever had
in my mind.
and i hate the past but it has happened
and i know it will always be there
has made me who i am
and willow trees hold my secrets
in their leaves
and they only seep out
when its raining
and when its raining,
no one can tell if i am crying.
so i walk in this days heavy shower.
and i am walking,
and i am silent.
my mother said
always to hold my weight
be quiet when i am
wandering, walking
my mother said to always
hold my weight.