i wish

all of the kids... with full pockets and parents there
to stuff them up.
ive started to sew my pants
without them, the pockets that is.
aint no one there to
rub my back until i fall asleep
tired and want
to give it all up, some days,
at least.
im relying on you
to lead me home,
hope.
and your relying on me
to be the one to love.
i spotted a couple last night
hugging and dancing and matching fingers between
fingers
i wished i were them.
i fucking wished
i was them.
all of your childrens children
never knew what it was
without a mothers mother
or a fathers dad, nope.
nuclear families i cant stand for
they just start to sicken me
but i want that.
i want them.
i fucking wish.