a quick note

dear un-nameable,

tonight i saw two deer on my neighbours lawn as i was walking home in the glint of the lights that line my street. this reminded me of running around in the forest in your back yard, there were many deer, i swear they could see straight through me.
last night i was driving in the dark, and i saw where you used to drive us, up straight and onto a winding road, into a clearing where houses we waiting to be built, and we sat on the roof of your car, looking up at the stars, feet dangling through the sun roof, the foo fighters playing off your ipod. i remember how unsure i was of myself. and i remember how it started to rain, though only lightly. and how i told you to just take me home.
i remember how i didnt feel like i even had a home at that time. so inbetween. so secondary to everything else.
but the rain was real. and the stars were. and the deer still see straight through me.
im so glad to be rid of you. i pretend you never happened. but i remember the driving. and i remember the rain, i always remember it this time of year.